Pouring a little out.

I really need to stop lingering over frivolous issues. I get so caught up in the small things & too often I lose sight of what matters. I allow my past (& everyone else's) affect how I feel & what I think. I am tired of always being so cynical. I watch Matt make such an effort to get me out of my ruts, but sometimes I am so deep in my cynicism his efforts go ignored. I can't believe that in the midst of my insecurity I am unable to communicate what I'm feeling. I have to stop doing this. I really need to succumb to the happiness I am offered on a daily basis.  I want to be a better girlfriend & a better friend.