Marriage

I wonder if my desire to grow up will be met with regret of all of my responsibilities. You know, like when a kid wishes he were grown up to do "cool, grown up things" only to realize when they get there & are forced to do those "things", certain responsibilities follow... Well I have been grown up for a couple years, but the responsibilities that come with marriage are much more than that, very different. You live together, share (almost) everything from bills to toothpaste & chores. My desires to experience that with Matt are becoming heavier & stronger on a daily basis. I want to start it. All responsibilities included.

Of course I can't wait for our beautiful wedding, but marriage is what I have realized I am waiting for. Sharing my life completely with another human being.

So this is what I wonder, will I be met with regret of all my married responsibilities? (NO I am not asking if I will regret getting married...) but when I get there, will I wish I hadn't grown up & still playing with the other kids. Probably at some moments, like when I realize I'm short on the electric bill because I went shopping... I hope he can live with that. :)