Love

I can't seem to find just one good way to deal with my insecurities. I dwell so much in those things that only hurt me but shouldn't. I have a great man who loves me so much but I find it so hard to let things go. I know I am past the point in my life where I'm allowed to use the same excuse over & over again. I've stopped blaming the fact that I had my heart broken by someone else. So for the sake of taking responsibility for my behavior I blame all insecurities on myself. I'm the one who seeks out those off sets of my behaviors. I push the limits with my thoughts & assumptions. I need to change that. This isn't about whether or not there is trust in my relationship with Matt, it's about how  I believe in us & who we are together. Because that is all that matters. Not all of our trifling past. I believe that one way I will exercise my goal is to show my appreciation more often, of all the things he does & says. That's love.